Fub -
Moderation is great if you can do it. The key is just to be honest with yourself about what moderation is, how you measure your drinking, and how it is impacting you and your situation. Alcoholism is progressive, so this needs to be monitored regularly. I've seen quite a few people who actually could moderate ok at first and then the progressive nature of the disease kicked in. Some of them never made it back. I wish you luck.