Court tomorrow
They were not able to settle yesterday so I have to testify tomorrow at a preliminary exam, I am very scared, and nervous. He will be there in stripes and cuffs and I know I will feel bad.
I called the Domestic Violence Shelter, and talked to the lady at the desk, she is having an advocate call me today and said that someone would go with me.
Here is my struggle: I just read the post about "victim vs. martyr". I am martyr...all the way. This makes me feel like I am just as much at fault as he is, after all, I chose to get in the car with him. I did not foresee the evening turning out the way it did, but I know he has POTENTIAL to be violent.
How in the word am I going to go in there and be strong, feeling like this?