aww shucks. You all are great.
All the mad and sad aside, the love for him is still there. I don't want to send him back to the deli, but the soup is cold right now.
I may be in denial-landia, but I am going to give MYSELF a some time and observe myself and his behavior.
Remember, I have my 10 day meditation coming up in Dec, so we will only see each other one day before Christmas. No biggie.
In January, I will use my time with him to do more self evaluation and observation and make some back up plans, just in case.
I feel kinda lucky, in a twisted way, to be jobless and having my buttons pushed like this and be able to read and journal and meditate and talk to y'all and grow.