You might be my drunken brother. That is exactly what i did. A 12 back was not enough when i drank. And i drank them so fast. I was pounding through a 12 pack in about 2 hours. Really, my mind just wanted to get to one point- wasted.
On weekends, i would by a case each night, to make sure that i had plenty of beer to keep me drunk.
I quit drinking hard liquor at 32, only to replace it w/ drinking more beer and at a FAST Rate.
I am coming up on 8 months now. I am not bullshitting here when i say this- I can't believe how happy i am to not be drinking. I can't believe that i arrived at this state of mind. I never woulld have accepted this.
Where to you live? You should go to an AA meeting..and just sit back and listen. Keep going even if you are still drinking. You will love it.