Hey 087, sorry for asking because I may have missed it in another thread, but how long have you been dry? It doesn't sound like very long. I--erm we all understand how awful the first stint is, the important thing is to trudge through it and see what is on the other side. You feel anti-social, don't think you can go to a party, it may seem ridiculous... it is not. If you are anything like me it will take some real time to start to settle after you have put down the last drink. I use AA in my recover, but I know and appreciate there are other methods out there... you might want to check it out in addition to counseling... and shop around a bit--not all AA is created equal... Keep posting, let us know how things are going...
Clayton