Love to all of you, thankyou. The pain of loosing my sister is horrific and I cry everytime I think of her. I keep saying, this just wasnt fair and I try not to dwell on the what ifs. I guess you always wonder if you did the right thing.... I do know though that even though others had given up on her, I was always there when she needed me... I could feel her pain so much and I still do.
Trying to acknowledge she has really gone is so hard for me. People keep saying she is now in the best place... this bugs me no end because I always had faith and hope that she would make it.
I can only hope that she is looking down on me now, helping me to survive this because you never know how much you need someone until they are gone.
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