Originally Posted by
firestorm090 
It's hard to type with tears in your eyes, the screen keeps getting blurry, lol.
When I really think about it, this group is just a blessing to this old drunk and makes me wonder who am I.
Do I deserve any of the the support, guidance and friendship that I've found here, probably not, but it's that very support that makes me feel that I may be worth saving after all. Why do you care so much? It just boggles my mind.
Maybe I've got it all wrong, but I always thought it was about carrying the message. One alcoholic sharing with another, and so on, and so on......
Whenever anyone, anywhere reaches out for help, I want the hand of AA always to be there. And for that I am responsible. Something like that.
If it wasn't for newcomers and people who struggle, I wouldn't have anyone to share much with. And yeah, I get pretty teary-eyed at least once or twice a day. Alcoholism and addictions aren't pretty, it's not always a pink-cloud day, we share in our successes as well as our falls.