FS, this place is like a lifeline to so many of us. I really feel like everyone has everyone's back here. WE get it and what you are going through. I have supportive family and friends but they just can't understand how it really feels to be an alcoholic and how it is such a daily struggle sometimes. The people on here do understand. We may all have different opinions and approaches but we have that common link. Addiction.
Hope you start to feel better as you withdraw. It sucks, no two ways about it. Take care.