McTired
I am late hopping on this thread, but I want to say how sorry I am that your life is so chaotic. I personally believe that physcal abuse is never to be tolerated and that is the only time I encourage people to leave their situation, or to at least put some space between them and the addict.
But emotional abuse, day after day after day, is really also a form of physical abuse, because it affects us not just mentally but physically. We get sick physically when mentally we just cannot fight anymore.
Occasional emotional upsets are normal even in a healthy relationship, but combine that with a substance that feeds an addiction and it's a toxic combination.
You sound strong in your recovery, and I know you will do what is right for you when the timing is right too, and I just want to tell you that we're walking beside you and care.
Hugs
Ann