Originally Posted by
LOST35 
Thanks everyone for answering all mt questions. A lot of you tell me to go to the doctor for my opiate withdraw or a detox place. The problem with that is I don't have the money to keep going to the doctor and I don't know where you all live but here in florida any detox that is free the waiting list is months and you have to call every day or they will take you off the list. They tell me when I call that 95% of the people on the waiting list are on it opiate withdraw. These doctors n florida should be shot anyone here can get oxys. They give me 240 oxy 30 and 120 oxy 15 and I don't have a damn thing wrong with me. They give everyone that all you need is a MRI and they will even tell you where to get a crocked MRI. Its crazy here in florida with these pills everyone is on them. I wish I knew than what I know now. These doctors took my life from me. I hope they all get by a train and die slow. They took my life and didn't care. Well sorry for rambling I just get so mad when I think about it Thanks for listing it helps to get it out.
While I appreciate your anger and frustration over your addiction, please understand that you are never going to begin the road to healing without taking responsibility for your own actions. You have repeatedly blamed the doctors and medical care providers for your addiction. No one asked you to take those pills. You made that choice. When the doctor prescribes them for you, they tell you how to take them. You made the choice to abuse them.
I am not judging you by any stretch. My first pain pills were given to me for a knee injury that I sustained while working as a nurse. I, better than most, know how these pills can easily prey on you if not taken in accordance with the way they are prescribed. At first, I blamed my doctor for being so "eager" to refill my prescriptions when I requested them. However, he is only doing his job. If I tell him I am still having pain...he is going to do what he can to alleviate that pain. He doesn't make any more or less money if I become addicted to pain pills.
He really had very little to do with my addiction.
Own your addiction, Lost. You created it. You can be the one to undo it as well. Speak to your doctor openly and honestly about your addiction so that it will close the pathway to you ever being able to use him as a source again. Also, a doctor can get you into the detox facilities faster than you can calling on your own. (I am a nurse here in Florida, where you are, so I understand your frustration with the detox centers here). There are many that can get you state funding to get into the centers in a more timely fashion. Your primary care doctor can be a great resource. I can PM you some of the names of detox facilities that will help facilitate that as well.
Ultimately, you do not have to detox at a facility. You know this. You can do your detox from opiated relatively safely at home. While opiate withdrawal is extremely taxing on the body...it is rare to encounter complications from opiate detox. In other words, it's not life threatening. It only FEELS that way. *trust me!*