Cherry-
You are an inspiration because you are doing this hard process too. I appreciate your words of uplift. I am not so sure I would have made it if things had turned out worse.Maybe you are right and this is a test. And it did help me put what is important in my life to the front.
Dee- I suppose everyone I know uses something to calm them down. My family of origin believes in self pharmacy. This is probably why I thought it was normal. Thanks for reminding me what normal people do.
Penny- You have almost 14 months girl! You are ahead of me on this path. And you are doing this without all the pee tests and the hoops facing me which in my mind makes what you do much much harder to stay clean. You can't relapse ever see because you've got this fan base rooting for you.
I love you all and I thank you guys greatly. Today I feel the effects of this wreck, I ache everywhere. Baby is still fine, I just checked her.