Originally Posted by
kittykitty 
It is obvious to me now that it does not matter if he's telling the truth or not. The only thing that I need to realize from everything that happened today is the simple fact that he is not taking his recovery seriously. If he was serious about being sober, and turning his life around, he wouldn't be doing the things he is doing. Period. If he isn't going to take it seriously, then I can't have anything to do with it.
Bingo. See, you knew it all along. Meanwhile, don't make yourself crazy about it. He is who he is, and he'll do what he'll do. You focus on taking care of yourself.
BIG BIG hugs to you. I know this is so hard. I'm fairly new at it, too.