Hi Kitty
I look at your posts and it reminds me of my first few postings here. I doubted myself, had second thoughts, analysed everything over and over again, wondered whether things were really that bad or whether was I over reacting?
What ala-non has tought me in my short time, is that I had to take the focus off my mom and use my energy's being good to myself. Have you looked in to going to a meeting yet? I would strongly recommend it.
Sometimes you just have to trust your own instinct.
Trust me it WILL get easier x