Beard82 my friend do you know what that fear is? It is the fear of the unknown.
Remember that very first day of school? Scared crapless!!! Came home at the end of the day grinning ear to ear, I was simply scared of the unknown!
Remember that very first day of High school? Scared crapless!!! I just knew the Seniors were going to kick my butt, well it turned out I was wrong, sure there were a few jerks, but over all it was just fine. I was simply scared of the unknown!
Remember that very first day of a new job? Scared crapless!!! Was I good enough, would I be able to do the job? Would they like me? In a matter of a few weeks all was well. I was simply scared of the unknown!
Remember that EVERY single person in that meeting has had thier first meeting, I can assure you that they remember that feeling of fear well.
Look walk in, grab a cup of coffee/tea, sit where ever you like! You do not even have to say a word unless you want to.
There is only one requirement to be in AA.......... a DESIRE to stop drinking. My first ever meeting I was drunk as a skunk, I was still more then welcome!
There is only one rule in AA, that is rule number 62 which states "Do not take your self to seriously!" We in AA are not a glum lot, that is not to say that there are not any miserable SOBs in AA. I was miserable my first months, not while in a meeting per say, I was hurting for a drink, I was lost without a drink, it took time for me going to meetings to learn how to live life on lifes terms sober.... slowly I did learn, thanks to the fellowship of AA and the 12 steps of AA I began to come around and learn how to live life sober and happy.