I don't think anyone said the opposite of love is hate. And I don't think I love that guy. I think he's just a burnt trench in my brain goo.
Indifference is where I was until this past weekend, and I'll get there again.
For now, I'm very comfortable consciously moving from fear and pain to anger. It keeps me from getting sucked into that other horrible place. Very effective, very valid way to "remember" reality. It's not where I want to live but I have to move through it to get to peace.
After I've got some NC under my belt, the indifference will return.