Perfectly understandable Gerry, and you're freaking brilliant!
.it's very possible that you will be feeling less vulnerable once you find full time writing.
this hadn't even occurred to me, but you're right, so right.
I just need more work, all though I am afraid the thing I need to do the most is finish my book proposal and get an advance to write my memoir. Won't that be fun..We;ll need a huge bottle of anti-anxiety meds for that one....