So, most of you know my story and for those who don't I'm gonna leave it at this I am an addict (pill head) been clean now for 43 days and I am going nuts!
I haven't had a day like this for awhile where I am crawling outta my skin, have horrible anxiety and just can't get out of my ******* head! I am going nuts up here. I'm not going to use but when I get like this do I want to use yeah. What the F triggers this anyway, where is this coming from, why am I stuck in my head today. I really can't say if there was a pill in my face right now that I wouldn't shove it up my nose as fast as I could. Because this is how I feel today.
I am alone, don't have a sponsor, my husband says "oh Ashlee now don't feel like this, why are you saying you want a pill today". He isn't an addict he don't get it. Don't we all have those days where you wanna just say F it and go get high as a kite?
Thanks for listening!
