Originally Posted by
miamifella 
As Joan said in Mad Men (quoting McLuhan) "The medium is the message." If you have no respect for the messenger, how can you accept the message?
Maybe, your problem with meetings and getting started with the program is wrapped up in that quote, somehow....
I just gotta believe that there is a decent 12 step meeting you can get to.
I had a WWII vet tell me a story about an experience here in the US after the war. He was a sergeant. He was transferred to another base. When he was looking for a house to rent he had some concerns about how the people were going to be in this new community. He talked to the CO about his worries. His CO asked him how'd he get on with his neighbors at his previous post.... The sergeant said "just fine", the CO told him not to worry, he'd get on "just fine" here too... True story. One I wanted to tell a month or two ago in one of your threads.
There is a line in the Big Book which I'll (try to) paraphrase...
"Our problems, we think, are of our own making."
I hope you can work through your own issues so you can have an awesome experience in AA or NA.... But they are your own, miami, be they ADHD, depression, sexual, whatever.
Mark