Hey miami,
I get it, and I've been there. We look to others and we don't see that they have anything we want, so their message lacks merit in our minds. That's exactly why I had to stop looking to others for the help I need and start looking into the program of recovery that has helped thousands of people change their lives. It's the program that makes sense to me, but not always the messenger, lol. We get to take what we can use from the meetings and leave the rest, and the only reason I go is because if I don't find a way to change the way I live my life, then I know beyond any doubt that I'll end up drunk and dead, it's really that way with me. I don't go for the others, I go for me, I'm a selfish ahole sometimes, but it works in my favor for this life or death struggle. All you need is one example, then follow that one example. After that, I'm sure you'll begin to see others who are living the life you want and can show you more.