thanks.. i have been floating around for awhile, this is good...
1What does it mean to be so powerless over alcohol that you are unable to manage your life?
i promised myself i would stop drinking, 'tomorrow' for TWO YEARS. the last year has been frightening, yes i drank alone, because i preferred it! i would turn down invitations because it would mean i couldnt drink how i wanted to, ie quickly.. i could drink a bottle of wine in an hour, and i thought i was controlling it, because i only did this on weekends, weeknights was only 3/4 bottle!
i attended functions with people who i didnt know all that well, and had to be taken home in taxies, black outs, couldnt remember!
my work was falling apart, i work from home, though still on wages, i couldnt do it, excuse every time, if it had gone on much longer i would have been hauled in! i am back on track now..
boy oh boy, first time i have written this down... and to think i was starting to question myself, and thinking i might be able to have a couple of casual drinks!! oh oh!
time to start working those steps
thanks
