sweet -
good luck to ya this time.
You mentioned your anonymity...
I think no matter *what* my job,
I'd rather be known as a SOBER alcoholic-
than one who can't stop drinking.
This time -
make 'starting over'...
a REAL start over.
Go back -
get a sponsor -
and work the steps.
Involve yourself in your recovery
with an equivalent energy
as you did drinking
and hiding it.
If you build your 'do over' foundation solid
and honest
with yourself
and with everyone -
you'll never have ty do this again.
Promise.