Hey Jo when a problem drinker stops their life gets better. When an Alkie (like me) stops it gets worse. You got to get in there and work some program of recover--AA or other. Just not drinking will not work... Glad to hear you had a serene moment... but for the love of God get the booze out of your house... Doesn't matter what kind it is... do you think junkies keep black tar and needles in the house for their partner if they are detoxing?