The decision I made and make every night for 38 years or so has been will I give in, give up and stick that drink in my mouth? Or will I...go to a meeting, talk to someone in recovery, pick up the phone, meditate, read the big book, cry, go for a run, bake cookies......Every night at 4:30pm my disease waits for me to make that decision.
Tonight I chose to write to you, for myself, for my sobriety.
What is alcohol doing in your house? It is like keeping a loaded gun around with a killer inside. And, it will kill. It will talk to you until you cave. I am an alcoholic, and if I have 30 seconds that my disease wins and convinces me to give in that is enough time to pour the poison into my body.
I will not allow alcohol to reside in either of my houses...my body or my home. I hope you are sober tonight.
Jules