Jo, please don't do it. Is there any way you and your husband can talk about removing all the alcohol from your home? I know that if there is alcohol in my apt, I will drink it. You don't want to compromise your resolve over such a no-brainer.
So much beauty and luck to you! I know it hurts. It makes me want to rip my skin off, but you just need to let the thought pass and replace it with something positive. You don't want to live through your children's youth numb.