Hi
I still sit there and feel such a great loss after all this time. It is my sister I am thinking about though, no longer there, no longer in my life because I made a choice to let her go. I can still remember (the good old days with her) laughing and doing things together with our children and feel such emptiness when I see how it has all affected our family. Her children are still angry with her (for not being there) and I dont know if they will ever understand her addiction. But for now I will keep having faith that one day she may want to live her life again.
If only she would believe (we will all still be there - when she wakes up, even after all this time). I know things will never be the same because of her addiction - but I believe in second chances, dont you? I believe too that she has a choice to live or die, its a matter of what she chooses in the end.
The thought of her dying brings such fear to me, but I will know that I had no control over it.
Jo