Im ok....
Why do family find it so hard to acknowledge when there is evil in their family?
I spoke to my sponsor today and we spoke about this... its like if i start to drink again they dont have to look at the reasons my drinking began...
I love my mum and some of my family but its hard when they live in denial...
I know i should let them live in their own past and i should move on from mine... doing my step 5 helped... i wont say they have solved my issues... but they have freed me from their secret...
Coming here was maybe not the best idea for me just yet... but i am here and i need to get through this... which i will..
I will not let this give me an excuse to drink which is what it wants and i am not feeling self pity... i am feeling anger and loneliness... these are what i need to work on..
Thankyou for listening and sorry for going on... i will cheer up...