Wow kjell, I'm glad you're ok... for now.
As for the work thing.. I know first hand about considering inpatient treatment and having a job you don't want to lose. Working w/ my EAP and my HR person at work really helped, they would have let me go on short term disability for ANY help I might have needed. As my boss said, "your health is much more important than your job", but that they would be here for me when I returned.
I ended up going the IOP route, because that's what was ultimatley recommended.. but don't be afraid of getting the help you REALLY need.