Swampy hearing what we know is true can be darn hard some times, but in the long run if we LISTEN and then follow that with ACTION we make progress.......... one day at a time.
Got a phone? Use it! I bet your sponsor has suggested that you call him or some one before you drink and not after! LOL
Perhaps rehab may be in order for you, it is a jump start, coming back is harder every time, so doing more then done last time may be in order.