How hard it can be to trust that our HP has something in store for us when we see the fruit of our labor slip away. Its hard to understand what we are learning sometimes. Pelican, I have no doubt that you are always open to that love and that lesson, and I draw a lot of strength from your posts here.
We all stand with you in your loss, you are never alone. Thank you for being such a voice of strength and wisdom for others even while you are going through trying personal times.