Pelican, you are such an inspiration to me personally. I think of your experiences often during my week even when I'm not logged in to SR, and I think it helps me make wiser choices.
Sending you much love and support, and hopes that this will turn out to be just a drop in the bucket of your life, completely overwhelmed by the joys that are to come.
(That said, I could easily pop your XAH in the head with a mallet right now...forgive me)