Hi Sandpoint
I came here and read and posted and talked and got some idea of what other people had done...
Doing that helped me realise all drinking was doing keeping me in a horrible loop...I was tying myself in knots trying to keep alcohol in my life and master it...and it would only get worse, not better.
With the help of people here, I gave in - I admitted it was time to give it up....which I did...one day at a time.
I found a way that made sense to me and I stuck with it.
I hope you find a way that speaks to you.
Welcome
D