You know, pain doesn't last forever and the pain of ending a toxic relationship leads to better new beginnings once you walk through it.
The pain of staying stuck in a relationship that makes you sick, makes you cry, makes you crazy, goes on and on as long as we stay there.
You are making progress, seeing the bad behaviour for what it is...the behaviour of an addict stuck in his addiction. Acknowledgement, acceptance and action are the three A's that will help us move forward.
Keep taking care of yourself, that's what is most important here.
Hugs