Keith you are right! I need to have a open mind but for some reason that is so hard for me to do. I guess cause I have that mind set of I want everything now or maybe it's because I am the type of person that likes proof of things. I don't want proof from God or anything, well I just don't know what I want. I'm just thankful for what I do have for now and my sobriety because life couldn't be much better!