I've been trying to fix it with my mind all the time....it works when sober...
Then everytime I get too confident...start smoking some...and then I can start all over again
...There have been several people throughout my life that claimed that it was all in my head, that I was creating my own addictive personality by thinking too much about it. I used to listen to them, moderating my use, not thinking about it, just doing it...it caused me to do some of the most dumbest things I ever done...and my use of only softdrugs expanded into soft and harddrugs...
funny thing is...
All those people who claimed that I should 'conquer', 'fix', 'surrender', to the drugs and alcohol, they were heavy daily users themselves...they were the dropouts, the unemployed, the anti-social...
I hope my reply is not offensive..i never wrote it with this intention towards you Kid,but i'm detecting some pattern here...
I actually should be gratefull, cause you made me realize more then ever that i should stick with the programme hahahaha
so....cheers...