I seem to hate the world and everyone in it lately. Driving back to work from lunch the thought even occurred to me "why not drink". I wont drink even the smell makes me nauseated. But I'm just so filled with anger; I can't sleep more than a couple of hours a night and I know that contributes to the anger. I just want to run people off the road and push them out out of my way and I've been cursing like crazy and that's something I never did except when drinking. I'm on the verge of tears half the time. I want a man in my life but they irritate the heck out of me if I even knew where to find one. I need to find something to do with my stupid life.