Thanks for all the comments and suggestions from everyone.
My problem seems a bit different than most, I think it is good for me to think through and recognize the damage I've done, simply because I normally don't do that. Most of the time, to be honest, I really didn't care what harm I did, and even when I knew it was hurting someone, if it meant getting drunk or high, well, I chose the latter, and to hell with the consequences or those I hurt. I did what I wanted to do.
I don't wallow in this stuff, that's just not me. It's a significant change for me to even give a sh!t about what I did. I think that's progress. I know I will make amends, some I've already made, and I will clean up my side of the street as much as possible. I think it's a good sign that I'm beginning to care, because when in the grip of my addiction, the only thing I really cared about was me and ole Jack D, or Mr. Miller, or my ole Bud.
I agree with Dee and all of you, balance and progress are the keys, perfection is not in my makeup, so I'll do the best I can day by day.