Unfortunately I've said the same thing and than ended up back. Here recently also. The thing is though I have never really maintained any sort of sobriety without AA.
About 3 weeks ago, and yeah I've relapsed from time to time, I went to a meeting like I always do. I was sitting in a corner there was probably 6 or 7 of us there before the meeting. A guy came into my face with 2 foot and said, "You're a F*ck!ng LOSER! OMG it took everything I had in me not to get up and punch him out. I am not sure how I responded in words but everyone else started to laugh after I said whatever it was that I did.
I stayed for the whole meeting, and than said the same thing you are.
I guess what they say..Just take what you want and leave the rest.
:ghug3