Thanks Everyone.
I went to the bookstore, bought a couple of books to start tonight. Trying to stay positive and logical. Ha! I'm very grateful that I found this forum. Feel like it's helping me stay on track.
Anvilhead, I'm really want to find new ways of being a diva too. Healthy ways. Here's to being a more enlightened diva!
Liveweyerd and Learn2live, thanks for your strength and insight.