This is such an AWESOME post, CowGirl! Thank you so much for sharing it. It truly lifts my spirits today.
Isn't it great when you finally see and feel the results of letting go?
I think the BEST part of reaching this point that you have reached was that when I did, it made me realize that I really DO have control over myself and my feelings. I realized that I WAS holding onto something (a person) in an attempt NOT to feel the feelings I was so afraid of feeling. I realized that having got through all of that pain, distress, fears, tears, and depression, I am STRONG ENOUGH to get through ANYTHING.
You are an AMAZING person CowGirl! I am so proud of you for what you are doing with your life and your children, in spite of all the sickness you and the kids had to climb out of! I am so inspired by the strength all the folks on SR have.