Midton, I'm a few years younger than you but five months ago, I felt like I was in a similar place. My thread was called, "Time to wake up," and I got a lot of great advice. You probably can search and find it here somewhere. Hanging around here on SR helped me a lot. I went the cold turkey route and have not attended any meetings or other support. I will not drink again without doing one of those things, however. Listen to the people on these boards who have significantly more experience with sobriety than me. You can do this. There are many living, breathing examples here to help.