All I can say is don't under any circumstance give into that voice. I thought I would be okay just having a few beers throughout the week and drinking no more then a 12pk at a given time a month. Well I did a years worth of drinking in one month and made sure to squeeze in the next years worth of drinking while I was at it. And then some......take it from someone who had a few months sober and just had to jump back out there on the front lines that you are not missing anything! I only hope I can get myself back on the path.