Originally Posted by
LaTeeDa 
Yep. Been there, done that. In fact, one of the biggest motivators for me to start looking at my own issues was when I realized I was becoming someone I didn't like very much.
My experiences exactly.
And I have felt that way at one time or another about ALL of the addicts in my life, even my sisters. I don't think it's an unusual fantasy to entertain when you're still in the chaos of addiction and don't yet have a plan to get out. You just want the pain to stop.