I was thinking this evening...
I said earlier that this feeling today sneaked up on me... came out of nowhere and that wasnt exactly true when i think about it..
Problem:
I havent been to meetings regularly... I havent spoken in a meeting in nearly 2 months...
I just say i am fine when people ask... and i am not...
Im working way too much.... HALT
I have been too much inside my own head...
Solution:
I need to get to a meeting and share
I need to be honest if i am not good
I need to cool it with work
I need to get out of me
It's not really that hard is it?
All my sponsor has asked is i make at least 2 meetings a week... more preferably...
I need to stop trying to work it my way cos it aint working...
I cant do this with just a BB at home and my sponsor.. Its not fair on her or me..
Anyway... cant do anything tomorrow as i am working til wednesday.. but i need to make more effort...
D*mn... this is my life..
Anyway enough about me... i really hope you guys feel peace in your lives