Hi Rachel, I'm glad you found this site. My husband has a drug addiction and believe me, I've felt many of the same emotions that you describe. I'm glad that you are both getting help, but it's not an easy process. Educate yourself as much as you can on addictions, recovery and co-dependency. I totally understand what you mean when you talk about loneliness and I'm sorry you are going through that. Don't let the addiction drag you down. Do not put your goals/dreams on hold, keep working towards achieving them, and keep coming back to Sober Recovery. This site and the members have helped me many times.