Welcome....I'm glad that you have found us. This site has been a wonderful addition to my recovery. The "sticky's" at the top of the forum are particularly helpful. My husband is also in recovery and I well remember when all of this was new to me too. I didn't know where to begin.
Naranon and Alanon face to face meetings have really helped me a lot. I realized that I am definitely not alone. Other people are going through the same things that you are and there is a wonderful community and opportunities for fellowship. Working my own recovery program is what helps me to cope with all of the emotions that you are speakiing of.
Keep reading and let us get to know you!