Blah?
Okay, so this weekend was the first week in a month that i have not visited with RBF and no Alanon meeting. I usually go to an Alanon meeting the night after visits with RBF.
So, why do I feel so blah? Or, should I say rejuvenated. Is this normal?
I can best describe the feeling as, it didn't bother me that I stayed at home and did nothing. I didn't have this feeling of urgency to be somewhere, talk to someone, see RBF, do anything. I was just all by myself with absolutely NOTHING to do.
I got my massage on Saturday evening, came back home and just slept after watching some movies.
On Sunday (usually visits with RBF and AlAnon meeting), I just lounged around the house, my son was with his grandparents and I had no urge to visit with RBF and/or go to Alanon. What was that all about? I wasn't upset, I wasn't feeling anything actually. Pretty scary I guess.
Does this mean I don't care? Nonchalant about this whole thing? At peace with the situation (finally)? I don't know..... confusing for sure.