Thanks Zak. I really appreciate that.
I wasn't able to go to yoga today and am not feeling the most serene, as you can see. I feel all emotional right now, crying and angry. But I have to go get my youngest son in 30 minutes, pick him up from AH. God, I hope I can keep my mouth shut.
This anger is so different, though. It's got sadness to it that i can't explain. Before, when I would be angry at him for being so horrible, there was something else attached to it. I think I stayed for so long because of his affairs, because I felt so bad about myself, I didn't want him to go to HER, I was afraid of that.
But when your worst fears come true, it seems there is nothing left to fear.
Now, I"m left with just being angry. Not afraid. Sad, yes. For my kids. And even for him.
Thanks for letting me vent everyone.