Cath thank you, you brought a tear to my eye as I read your post. It says right in the BB that more will be revealed, you have begun already to have a spiritual awakening from what you have posted. Continue down the path, there will be bumps along the way, but in the long run things will continue to amaze you. I have been sober over 3 years now and by applying the steps to the best of my ability to all areas of my life on a daily basis I continue to be amazed. Cath stay honest, open minded and willing.