I hate it!
I have never felt so alone, nobody to talk to, can't call anybody. There will be a lot more days to come like this until next month. I have to tell them at the church tomorrow that I can't come in anymore until October because I can't afford the gas, and no meetings.
I never have been good at being by myself. A friend once said it's like kryptonite for me, and she was right. I don't want to go to bed, just stay up. Sometimes I think even AH would be better than this, and I wouldn't even care if he yelled at me, but I know that is so wrong.
When I was younger, I always pictured myself having a big family. I don't though. There is nobody. Sorry to dump on all of you, just feel sad tonight.