Why is this so hard?
Last night I had to go to my Ex fiancés house to get the rest of my stuff and we went for a walk and talked.
He told me what really happend.... Apparently 4 days before we asked him to give us a drug test he was at the store and saw one of his old "buddies" and he doesn't know why but he did get high and when he woke up in the morning he hated him self for doing that. He didn't know how it happened. He said he did it 2 times, and thats why when the test was positive he couldn't believe in it because over 24 hours passed. He said he f*cked up. And this whole thing shouldn't have ended like this.
He is on work release right now till October 8th.
He looked clean 100%.....
when i was sitting next to him and he asked me if i love him, and i said yes, i got this image in my head.... him holding a needle and getting high.... and i said I had to go...
I don't know if I'll ever get that image out of my head....